Score the gol and make it even

I cant sleep...woke up every hour from 1 am until 9...the first time i felt pain...down to my chest...i cant cry because i don't know what i am feeling...i am trying to rationalized everything that happened...and its 5 in the morning...still thinking what to do and say...thinking of the right thing to do..



Today is the first time we had problem...and i am trying not to make a big deal out of it...it is a big deal...but i keep trying to smile...thinking of good things in life i should cherish..and things that "glue" us together...

For a while...i cant think of any...wanting to know the reason why this happened...but at the same time...i don't really want to know...

Positive...yes positive....think a about thousands of things that i love....to hide and outshine this terrible event.

Trust is wounded...no words can heal that...
Make changes...send flowers...move mountains...
Only time will tell...

Another chance another day....till we hurt each other again...
I forgive...but never forget...
I might strike and score a gol...so that we are even...

Took risk....worth it?
Yes....i believe so

We are one....and if i hurt you...i know i will feel the same way too

The Secret...that worked

I read this book recently and i changed my life...the Secret



But in order to read it you really have to open your mind...have strong faith in what you believe in and try to understand this self motivating book is based on science....yes..science!



Its all about positivity....good things attract More good things...
And being and feeling happy...it worked...i got what i want...and very happy with my life now ...

Read it..you'll know what i mean

XOXOXOXOXOX

HA!!!

HAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

im so bored....my lover is away to LA for a week...huhuh tak boleh contact...and im kinda bored....nothin intrestin on the internet really....what a lame pathetic excuse to write this ait? hahaha

Whitney MadTV

Hahah i Love Mad TV...Its been cancelled...and i actually forgot about the existance until i stumble into Whitney Parody...So Funny!

OMG!!!

Lamanya tak blog...huhuh sowwie...time restriction..well not really actually...just malas...lately...banyak masalah and new commitments...if u know what i mean? hahahaha

BTW.....
errr

BeyonCE...Dia Lupa KOT!!!??!

Queen BeoWuff...very the Lufya! hahahahaha

Cantik Kan?

Tapi Dia Lupa KOT!!!

Richest??! Hail Queen BEOWUFF??

WITH two superstars living under one roof, it's a wonder the furniture can fit inside with the gargantuan egos.
And BEYONCE KNOWLES has confessed being married to JAY-Z is a “power struggle”.
The feisty singer, who tied the knot with her fella in April, admits the relationship can be tiring but she wouldn’t have it any other way.
Beyonce said: “My marriage is a power struggle. But if I didn't respect someone and they didn't have that strength, then I would be bored. I wouldn't be attracted to them.”
And it's hardly surprising the 99 Problems rapper may feel a little intimidated.
His wife has just been crowned the richest star under 30 - with an estimated $80 million (£55m) in the bank.
She toppled JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE into second place on the list compiled by Forbes magazine.
The top ten richest stars under 30 are:
1 Beyonce Knowles - $80 million (£55m)
2 Justin Timberlake - $43 million (£30m)
3 Kobe Bryant - $39 million (£26.8m)
4 LeBron James - $38 million (£26.1m)
5 Roger Federer - $35.2 million (£24.1m)
6 Keira Knightley - $32.2 million (£22.03m)
7 Maria Sharapova - $26.1 million (£17.9m)
8 Daniel Radcliffe - $25.1 million (£17.2m)
9 Miley Cyrus - $25.1 million (£17.2m)
10 Mary-Kate and Ashley Olsen - $15 million (£10.3m)

Raya...

well....raya dah abis.....huhu dunno why...somehow raya kali nie...have been quite unexpected....i tot it would be boring...but its not....huhuhuhuh maybe bcoz i was homesick...kot? but....rasa cam tanak balik je....huhuhuhu i really miss my family...and kalau leh i wanna stay here....and work here je...huhuh


Owh By The Way....

Slamat Hari Raya! Maaf Zahir and Batin

Community Service Annoucement?

Huhuhuhu Doing My Community service annoucement....huhuh kene siapkan untuk 2 mingu!!! huhuhu rengsek! huhuh 4 yall info..huhu tapi...err sambung nantilah!

Al Fatihah -In Loving Memory-

In Loving Memory

Jariah Bte Abu Yazid

1945 -2008

Age :63

I have just lost my grandmother today (4th Sept 2008)...well...to be exact...i dont feel very sad when my mum called me to tell that she passed away...WHY? well....when u re grown up...n dont really see ur grandparent so often..u tend to forget....i guess i was to excited about my life skarang...until i forgot....what i used to have...the sweet memories that i used to cherish...and take things for granted....its been a while seen i see her...

BUT

masa aku on the way balik kampung....the morning after she died....somehow...aku tringat criter tentang puteri hantu paku...yang opah (my grandma) slalu crita kat aku....aku nak dengar crita tu berkali kali...tapi tak pernah dia boring crita plak...n....setiapm kali aku balik kampung dulu...dia akan buatkan aku milo yang sangat sedap.....

then aku sampai kat depan rumah opah aku....my parents yang amik from bus station...then....aku dapat tau...diorang dah kebumikan dia...coz aku lambat sangat....agak terkilan....then aku duduk kat luar rumah...nampak pokok betik...tinggi dah...aku tringat balik kat opah aku..

hm...dulu aku slalu tido ngan dia...n masa aku umo 7 or 8 tahun...aku suka sangat dia balik kampung....hm..dulu...dia n aku ada tanam satu pokok betik...depan umah kmpung tu...pastu dia cakap....pokok nie...macam mirul....nanti dia besar...buah dia sedap...pokok dia tinggi.....nanti hari hari opah siram...bile opah ingat mirul opah siram la..n....sedar sedar...dah tinggi....huhuhun ntahlah....at that time aku baru rasa sebak...tapi diam je la..

Then...aku plak dapat tau...from my mum...yang opah aku...on her last few month...she had a horrible life....hm...takyah la nak crita sangat....cukupla stakat cakap..yang dia terabai....n even tengah sakit teruk....anak anak dia....menantu dia...tak endah sangat...in fact...dia terpaksa pindah rumah sewa...n jaga diri sendiri....WHAT THE ****?!!! aku tak sangka pulak anak anak dia...yang duduk ceruk kampung tu perangai macam binatang! my mum (menantu) baru dapat tau benda tu..a few weeks before she died...and its too late then...

aku tringat pesan opah aku...."selagi kita hidup...doa ibu yang akan buat kita berjaya n diberkati....macam mana pun kita buat ibu tersiksa...selagi dia hidup...dia akan doakan...n walau tuhan murka...tapi dia akan makbulkan doa ibu....tapi bila ibu tak takda....hanya tinggal kemurkaan Allah...." biarlah anak anak dia rasa nanti bila opah aku dah takda... then aku tringat tu baru aku nangis....***tapi sape pun tak sedar la kan!!!****

takder la lagi aku rasa rendang tok...kiuh mazola...yang sedap.....then baru aku betul betul terkilan...

sometimes...it will take time for us to realise..the good things that we forgor...Opah aku dah ajar aku benda yang aku hanya sedar..masa dia dah takder....

U guys out there.....cuba ingat balik....ape benda penting yang korang dah lupa....apa yang penting dalam hidup kita...

Al Fatihah~~ semoga Allah cucuri rahmat pada yang telah tiada...